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Artistic Identity Crises happen.

Posted by Morthagg - April 5th, 2011


Well, I've always been relatively prone to identity crises in the past few years, mostly because introspection comes about as natural to me as digesting. Of course, when you draw things, those identity crises can spread to that habit too, since 'art' is often percieved as lying close to your own personality. Which it is.
So, I had another one of my identity crises after drawing another one of what seemed my standard, boring, personality-lacking people-faces that come so naturally out of my pencil. When I draw, it seems I instinctively draw human figures, shapes and faces, all in kind of the same way, even if they're different. And sometimes I get fucking sick of it. I don't know if it can be imagined, but I draw nearly every day: on the bus, on the train, on the tram, in class, before I go to bed, and if those drawings are seldom something more than human figures and faces and shapes because they've become your standard 'doodle'.. it can become annoying. I don't even have the feeling I choose to draw them, it's just that wen I put my pencil on paper it seems they flow out uncounciously.
And then, of course, my annoyance grew and I started hating how I structure my sketchbooks. Which is to say: not. I know what a good and interesting sketchbook looks like, then how come mine always seem to look more like loose sketches glued into a bookcover? They seem flat, inconsistent, boring and unstructured. So I did what I do best.. and wrote almost two pages of ramblings in it. What probably won't make it a better sketchbook.
So now what?
Wait untill the mood passes and then start drawing overly muscular human figures again.
BACK TO THE START BEBEH

Oh, hey, look-e-here. My first real naggy blog-like post. Glad that's over!

Artistic Identity Crises happen.


Comments

That's something sad to hear.
Right now, I've been working on animation practices these last days. I just can hope tomorrow, or the day after tomorrow, or any future day the clouds will go away and I'll see the world (and my work) differently. I'd wish to stop caring and forget about all this stuff for at least a day, a brief rest... But sadly, I can't do that right now.
I try to remember the time when I was attending a course about web design. I entered in there without even having a computer at home. I got extremely frustrated and was about to quit.
And if I would've done that, I won't be here right now.
So, as you can see, I'm just biting the bullet and try to carry on.
Right now, I can only wish you can get that blues away from you. The sooner, the better. I'd wish I could be of more help, but I only can write stuff here.
Cheer up, we all are rooting for you.

Thank you for your honest response and support, but it's really not that bad. My post wasn't supposed to sound as dramatic as it apparently does..
If it makes it any better, I already feel an itch in my fingers again to start drawing Gnoll Druids :D

I hope your own practices are coming along nicely and you'll get your day of rest soon.

Hey!

I was a bit saddened to read this, especially because you're one of the very few artists which I regularily visit (or stalk...). I find your work very rounded up in terms of technique and style. You are very versatile.

I find I have the same problem, sometimes.... All the portraits I draw basically depict the same non-existing, soft featured short haired girl with some variations of context and colors. My sketchbooks are dull and full of them. The sketches I've seen from you are extremely varied in comparison. You are a great artist by all means and your work is worthy of admiration.

Maybe you've become so accustomed to your own style you don't see it anymore, like when you compare your own facial features with those of your parents. It's quite hard to see the similarities when it's your own family, but with others, you can instantly tell... I can tell you have something unique, because that's precisely why I check up on you every other day.

Cheer up, dear!

Dios Mio!